I dun belong anywhere

After a week...

I finally update my blog...

Hmm~~
My last few blogs was kinda like vry moody de rite...
Erm... I tink my tis post wil b more moody bah... ^^
Y??

Well
Judging by the title, dun tink it wil b a gud thg rite???

Well.. Tat is absolutely rite... ^^
Cz... I dun really belong anywhere

Y is tat??
Well... Based on thgs tat i experienced...

Rmb my 2nd last post... Thgs i wrote bout 'Frens' de ar...

Yea yea... It is kinda related 2 tat de lah... ^^
I dun belong anywhere
Y is tat so...

Alrite... Lets analyze y is tat so...

1st thg... College frenz... They dun really knw me
So they wun knw bout hw thgs goes with me rite??
Like for example when m i happy or moody...
They wun even knw de lah... ^^

2nd thg is... They have their own secondary frens de... Rite??
So... They cnt jz ignore their secondary frens de mah... Correct rite??
Tat i 100% agree loh... So ignoring college frens is a normal thg lah...
Tis i totally agree de... ^^

So... 3rd thg is...
Back 2 my secondary frens... ^^
Consider as frens who i hav long know them
Kinda long cz some is 5, 4 or 3yrs punya frens...
So... Thy kinda knw me lah... When i m in the mood or nt de... ^^
Thy wil knw de lah... Erm... I suppose so... :p

So... Wat is the prob??

Hmm~~ The prob is...

1. I hav nt been meeting them... Y??
2. They are bz with their thgs (Well... Bz in many ways... Even ridiculous reason cn b used :p)
3. They hav their own college frens as well or their own life... ^^

Hmm~~
So whenever we hav a gathering or so called 'yam cha'

Eventhough we stil chit chat 2gether...

I dun really knw whether i fit in or nt...
Aiks... It is kinda funny nw only i m tinking all tis huh??
Last time i used 2 enjoy 'yam cha' with them...

Bt nw~~ I dun really knw myself d...

So tell me... Whr do i belong??
I DUN BELONG ANYWHERE~~ ^^

ARGH!!! I jz hate tis part of me...
Suan le bah...

I dun really knw wat is the meaning of frens d...
Dun really wan 2 knw oso...

Suan le bah....

P/S : Its been a long time since the 'EMO' side of me come out... ^^

There it goes...

Hmm...

Suddenly wanna write a post...
Cz...

My hope is alrdy flushed down into the toilet bowl...
Aiks...
Cnt do anythg... Feel so bad...
Haiz...

Suan le bah... Oso cnt do anythg...
Aiks...
It is always like tis from the start... So??
Ntg 2 feel sad bah??

T.T

Kesiannya saya... :p
Biasa liao lah... So... Ntg 2 b sad?? I hope so...

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Another thg 2 add on in my post...

Last time in my secondary skul
My frens always cn c being emo de...

I always oso wil keep quiet or muka wil bcome damn sour de...
Aiks... Those were the days huh??

N nw... In college
My fren in college dun hav tat opportunity to c those thgs...
Cz y should i do tat?? I should nt spoil any gud thgs or spoil their mood rite??

So... Nowadays in college...
Eventhough i m damn emo
I stil put on tat smiling face & joke with them like ntg is happening...
Jz cn keep it inside me bah...

Lalalalala~~ ^^

ARGHH!!!!!
I stil beh tahan ar!!! My hope alrdy flushed down the toilet bowl d ar!!! T.T

BEH SONG!!! :p

K lu~~ Optimistic is the best thg 2 do... Nvr bcome Pessimistic ^^

Is it IMPORTANT??

Trust~~
Is it the most important thg in any kind of relationship??

Well... For me...
Nt really important
It depends in wat kind of relationship...

Like with friends...
I dun really mind if they dun trust me at all...
I mean seriously~~
Is it tat important ar?? I mean with friends lah...

Erm~~ Well...
Whr i m coming from is...
I dun really wan 2 knw any secret...
U knw the kind of secret which is "I tell u, u dun tell others ar~~"
Tat kind of trust lah... Get my point?? XD

So... I could nt really careless bout all tat stuff

Wat i really care is...
Friends is ppl i wan 2 enjoy with, hav fun with, hav ups & downs 2gether with them
If u wan tell me ur secret, well tat is fine with me...
I could nt care bout telling it others... Cz it is none of business lah...

Bt trust play an important role in certain relationship
Like family & those some1 special to u...
U get wat i mean... So... Trust play an important role in thr... Und?? ^^

Wahseh!!!
I feel myself crapping to much at here liao lah...

The reason i m writing tis blog is cz i feel tat...
I dun really nid my friends trust~~ Kinda rude huh??

Bt well... Tat is the truth... Tis is who i m, so either u accept who i m or...
Well... Ignore me?? I m kinda used to tat 'ignore' word though
So... Fine by me... ^^

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Nw listening to 浪漫手機 sang by Jay Chou~~
Well... Listening to tis song brings back old memories & new memories like nw...
Tinking bout certain stuff...
Aiks... No reply at all~~ T.T
So sad... Biasa d lah... Based on old experience... XD

K loh~~ Gonna stop crapping d... ^^

Been tinking~~

All rite
1st of all

Tis blog leh... i tink wil b divided into 3sections bah...
I guess so... :p

1st section is...
2mrw is EXAM ar!!!! T.T
Stil haven study yet...
Wat 2 do~~ It is in my nature 2 study last minute mah...
N den i oso cnt study in the morning de
I m a 'night ow'l leh~~ XD

Bt hope i cn pass it lah...
Den after tat wil hav a long break til next week punya friday~~
T.T So cham ar... Cz on tat friday wil b another exam
Nid wait so long for it... ARGH!!!!

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Ok~~ Tat is 1st part lah...

The 2nd part of my blog is...

Ydy, thr was tis person...
A friend of mine...
I dun tink u wil b viewing my blog de bah... :p

So ydy she find me lah...
Hmm~~

So it is kinda like an argument tat the 2 of us had...
She say tat having best fren is gud

Bt i find tat havin best fren is nt gud all~~
Well... Cn say tat based on my experience bah...

Cz she find me chat after a long time...
I mean really a long time...

She said tat best fren do not nid always chat de...
N den i dun really rmb wat she added lah...

So... Ofcz i disagree lah...
So the argument went on...

Hmm~~
Dun knw y lah...
The term 'best fren' to me is nt really gud loh...

Some ppl say it is best to hav 'best fren' den those 'normal fren'
Well... I dun knw bout tat~~ For me, i dun really like it lah... ^^

So... 4giv me lah... Cz i dun tink i would ever know wat is 'best fren'
So 4giv me lah~~ k?? ^^

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Okie, for my last part

Well... It happen on friday night
Tis kid i knw... :p

Cn say small girl lah... XD
Well... Life have its up & down de
So nw mayb u r going through the down phase

Bt dun worry... Cz after rain, the sun wil shine again...
Und bor??

Somethgs leh... U hav to look it at a different angle
Den u wil c thgs more clearly

So jz hope tat u wun tink too much of thgs lah...
Life is a wonderful thg

Eventhough sometimes...
Even I, wil hate certain thgs...

Bt den, stil have to face it rite??
We cnt bcome a coward de
So jz face the problem

Cz next time...
In the future, u wil b more mature
N at tat time u wil b tinking back bout the prob u r facing nw
U wil b laughing at urself tat time

U wil b askin tis ques to urself 'Did i made all tat silly mistake last time??'
Den u wil b smiling at urself back~~

So...
Wat i cn say is... Enjoy ur life bah~~
Dun regret anythg leh~~ Und?? ^^

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Well... Tats it for my blog~~

ARGH!!! Thr are so much of movie i wanna watch ar!!!

Wan go?? :p

Should i or leave it??

Its been 3weeks since i last wrote my blog
Kinda bz lah... With assignments & so on...

Or in another word, cn say lazy loh~~
Cz seriously i dun really knw wat i cn write...
Keep on writing bout my daily wil b vry boring de mah...
Aiks...
Bo bian lu...

So nw writing tis blog leh...
Jz wanna write & 'sun bian' update tis blog loh...

So...
Been bz with the photography assignment...
N THX GOD tat it is finally over

Bt the worst is yet to come...
Cz exam is next week
1 benda oso haven read yet!!!
ARGH!!!

Den i heard tat thr wil b another photography subject for next sem
OMG!!!
Sure die 996 d...
Cz next sem wil b a long sem...

Aiks
Dun knw hw much $$ wil b spending for next sem
Cz tis sem alrdy use a lot of $$ d~ T.T

Goin to b broke soon...

Hmm~~
Den i have been tinking
Whether i should do 'it' or nt??
ARGH!!!

I really hate 2 make decision!!!
If i do 'it' scare the end result wil b bad~~
Aiks >.
Tis is nt like me at all!!!
Really hate tis part of me!!!

Suan le bah!!!
JZ DO IT!!!
MIAN LUT!!! ^^