Tuesday, February 1, 2011

WEIRD~!!!

Howdy~?!!! :p

I am back into blogging again...
Suddenly thought of blogging again...
Depends on my mood~~ XD
I mean... I will blog when i feel i want to de loh~~ :p

So....

This few days, i mean past few 5 or 4days ago~~
Lots of thing is going through my mind
I dun really know why but I hate it
Coz once i start thinking about somethings
It will continue on until i find a solution for it

And the best part is the thing I am thinking about makes my mood swing
Not a good thing~
Aiks...
Been feeling like there is a scar in the heart & it makes my heart damn painful
Damn it~~
Every single night I will have the same feeling...
Really can't take it

Listening to "B.o.B - Don' Let Me Fall" which is playing right now >>>>>>>>>
Can make my mood swing more faster :p

Recently *I mean starting last month*
I have started again my words which have double meaning
And I really mean LOTS OF MEANING
Not much people can figure it out
Depends whether you know me or not~~

And erm.... I DARE to say that none of you all will know it
Unless I tell you all the meaning, cause not a single human can guess it right

I'll write down the earliest post till the latest post that I have post in my MSN
The following will be it :-

'HUSKY.RAINING.ICE-CREAM'

'I am climbing up a LADDER & I am going up high. I am afraid that i will FALL down HARD'

'CROSSROAD.SCRIBBLES.WINTER.ICE-CREAM.ROTTWEILER'

End of these~~~

Next will be~~
Well, it looks like my attitude towards my cousins have to change huh??
They are no longer the lil couz that i have to look out for
All are grown up, so i have to treat them as equal

Hmm~~
Well... Looks like i just gonna do that
Cause I no longer have any STAND anywhere ^^

Okie~~ Lastly i just wanna share a song :p
Well... cause i feel it is a nice song?? haha XD
Click on the link below :p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4sdCdBkRHlc

Monday, November 15, 2010

A knife through the heart

Woah~!!!
Hw long it has been since i last wrote my last post huh?? XD
2months++

Nt bad...
Hmm~~
Kinda busy with assignments & another reason was kinda lazy to update my blog...
I know not much of people will be viewing this post
Cause they might think that i have stopped writing

Well
It does not matter cause i just wanna released everything that i have kept in my chest

Lets talk bout my post today...
Been acting kinda weird starting 2 or 3 weeks ago
I meant myself... y??

Erm...
My heart is a bit not obedient with me
Cause it has been reacting towards some1
AIKS~!!!
DAMN IT~!!!

I wish that it did not react
Cause nowadays it feels awkward around you...
I seriously don't know what to do

If only i can avoid you
If only i did not hear bout some stuff
If only i did not see some stuff~!!!

DAMN~!!
Today was kinda moody moody a bit
But like i said before, i will never show my EMO side in college

So eventhough i may look happy
But then, it may look different...
For those people who have known me for quite a long time
They should be able to detect it

But i guess they won't have any chance to see it also
Cause they are no longer in the same class or course as me... ^^

I don't dare to do anything drastic
I am just another coward
Yea~~ I admit it... There is nothing to feel ashamed about

But still...
ARGH~!!!
I think i am gonna start crapping again...
So i think i am gonna stop here d...

Just wanna release things from my chest
Thats all...
Hope none of college friends sees this... ^^

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Can't REMEMBER a thing

Today was the day we collected her ashes
In the morning went with family to collect it...

After tat i had to go to college
Where else, they went to Port Dickson to release the ashes into the sea...

I wanted to follow them
But den i hav exam in the afternoon...
Aiks~~
Suan le bah...

So went to college to sit for my English paper at 2pm
I dun really knw whether i did a good job or a bad 1

Came home after the test
Did nt went out anywhere

My eldest sis punya poodle came over to the office
Had some flashback of memories bout her when she was young
*if u knw who i mean*

I wanted to remember back on how the way she used to bark & whines
But it seems that i can't
It is jz a day...
N it seems that i can't remember

Aiks~
It looks like i gonna let go huh??
Trying to do that... ^^

Can't be EMO anymore...
Dun really like this feeling...

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

A day to REMEMBER

It been a long time since i last blogged...
Was busy with assignment, college & all other stuff...
Cn say that i was kinda lazy to blog d...

The reason for me to write again was cz i needed to share it with someone
I hav dun hav an other half for me to share with it

So guess that i only cn share it with my frens~
Eventhough so, I guess thr wil b no1 since it is quite sometimes i updated my blog...

Alrite~~
The reason for me to write was today is a day for me to remember...
Its nt bcz of Independence Day~~

It is bcz today i lose a pet, a fren & a loving sister~~
My pet dog~~ Mimi...

A shocking news indeed that woke me up from my sleep in the morning...
Rmb the last post i posted on this year January?? about her condition....
*can see her wound??*

She struggled clinging on her life for another 8months to live...
N the best part of all...
She picked on the rite day to leave us...
A public holiday...

ARGH~!!!
There are 2 feeling inside me...
I am happy cuz she no longer hav to suffer d...
I am sad cuz whenever i come back to the house i wun b able to see her again...

DAMN IT~!!!

Tis is the 2nd time i m regretting again...

N i seriously HATE tis feeling~!!!
DAMN IT~!!!

I wun b elaborating bout the process...
It is jz tat... I needed to share it with some1...
Or mayb nt some1... Jz share it in the net...
Haiz...
Erm...
FYI we cremated her...

R.I.P Mimi ^^

We wil always remember you *my sister*
You are my 1st & the last pet i wil ever have...


P/

Thursday, May 20, 2010

A Trip~~

On the 18th of May 2010
During the starting of our DBC2 1st sem

There were 12ppl(including me)
Skipped our lecture to go for our GENTING HIGHLAND Trip!!!! :p
N we came back on 19th of May~~ ^^
Stayed overnight thr...

It was actually planned during the holiday lah~~ I mean our sem break~~

So practically~~
I had lots of fun with them~~
N tis cn b said tat, tis was our 1st time outing or shall i say our 1st trip~~ ^^
N we wil do it alot more in the future~~ :)

Hmm~~
Never once in my 19yrs tat i had a trip with my secondary frenzzz
I dun knw when only we wil hav tis kind of thg...
(Eventhough i knw tat u all hav been doin lots of trip during the past few years)

Nvm bah~~ Hope we cn do it in the future~~ ^^

----------------------------------------------------------------------------

I tink my bad luck is coming back again!!!
DAMN IT!!! T.T

1st of all, all my hp contact no. all lost d...
Damn sad nia~~ T.T

2nd~~ ARGH!!! Tis is even worse
The KL TOUR 2010 punya pics all gone d ar!!!
DAMN IT!!! Seriously bad luck ar!!! T.T

N nowadays oso bcoming EMO oso~~ T.T
I DUN WAN AR!!! Sad nia~~ Haiz...

Monday, May 17, 2010

Ended Well~~

So on 15/05/2010
We had KL TOUR 2010 organized by SWC SSH committee
Which i was 1 of them XD

So~~
I was the Tour Guide Leader for the trip 'FIZZY FUZZY'
Glad tat i join tis thg...
Cz i meet alot of ppl & gain experience ^^

Hmm~~
YEa... N tis trip hor... Gt a person say i m 'STUCK UP'
Wat de??!! U dun knw me only OKAY!!! :p

Lalalala~~

Den after all tat...
Was vry tired

I took lots of photo gt more than 700++ photos bah...
Wil b uploading soon at KL TOUR 2010 group at FB~~ ^^

-----------------------------------------------------------------

I seriously wanna knw!!!! T.T
I jz wanna try!!! Bt i dun dare 2 do it...
I hav low esteem 2wards myself!!!! T.T Sad nia~~

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Dun knw, Dun care

After a long tiring week
Finally i cn rest d~~

Bt den tis sat hav 2 work hard again~~
ARGH!!!

Cz of KL Tour loh~~ T.T
Hav 2 bcome tour guide ar!!!
SO CHAM!!! T.T

Dun feel like wanna bcome
Bt den tak apa lah...

Jz gain some experience lah...
Hmm~~

**************************************************

The main topic for 2day is 'Dun knw, dun care'

Well... Cz...
ARGH!!!
I m stuck d!!! I dun knw hw 2 continue writing tis topic ar!!!
T.T

Whr should i start??!!! Wat shall i write??!!! T.T

I jz hate tis feeling!!! T.T
The feeling of u wan 2 knw smthg about tat person
Bt once u knw smthg, u wil regret y u wan knw it~~

N den when u knw it, u wil feel BEH SONG!!!
ARGH!!! Jz seriously feel like wanna DUN KNW & DUN CARE!!!

Bt i cnt do it... Cz i stil wanna care T.T
Tis is call sendiri cari pasal rite??
Wat 2 do jek~~ Sudah macam ini mah... Apa boleh buat??
Wan find for advice oso dun knw who 2 ask... So sad nia~~

Really dun knw wat 2 do & confuse... Aiks~~

------------------------------------------------------------

Been listening 2 Jay Chou's new song tat is 超人不会飞
Like tis song alot... Cz the jalan cerita of the MV nice...
N i like it... :p

Haiz... Stop writing d lah..
Oso dun knw wat 2 write... T.T