A knife through the heart

Woah~!!!
Hw long it has been since i last wrote my last post huh?? XD
2months++

Nt bad...
Hmm~~
Kinda busy with assignments & another reason was kinda lazy to update my blog...
I know not much of people will be viewing this post
Cause they might think that i have stopped writing

Well
It does not matter cause i just wanna released everything that i have kept in my chest

Lets talk bout my post today...
Been acting kinda weird starting 2 or 3 weeks ago
I meant myself... y??

Erm...
My heart is a bit not obedient with me
Cause it has been reacting towards some1
AIKS~!!!
DAMN IT~!!!

I wish that it did not react
Cause nowadays it feels awkward around you...
I seriously don't know what to do

If only i can avoid you
If only i did not hear bout some stuff
If only i did not see some stuff~!!!

DAMN~!!
Today was kinda moody moody a bit
But like i said before, i will never show my EMO side in college

So eventhough i may look happy
But then, it may look different...
For those people who have known me for quite a long time
They should be able to detect it

But i guess they won't have any chance to see it also
Cause they are no longer in the same class or course as me... ^^

I don't dare to do anything drastic
I am just another coward
Yea~~ I admit it... There is nothing to feel ashamed about

But still...
ARGH~!!!
I think i am gonna start crapping again...
So i think i am gonna stop here d...

Just wanna release things from my chest
Thats all...
Hope none of college friends sees this... ^^